Tonight.. I feel less. Less important and undeserving of affection and tenderness. Less worthy to be treated well. Less than who I should be. Less of who I want to be. Tonight.. I just feel less.
“There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors of perception.” ― Aldous Huxley
When I first found this pose I thought, “whoa that’s kinda naughty” But then I started thinking about why someone might be in this particular position without it being naughty. Maybe to get a closer look at something that couldn’t be seen from the perspective life normally had them in?
I remember as a child looking up at people and things thinking they were huge. Believing that they were either bigger than life or too big to touch. Life changed and I grew up. I got somewhat taller. I began to see things differently because I was in a different position in life both physically and emotionally.
I have found that to be the case in most things in life. A few nights ago at work I left feeling more down than I ever have in my career of being a nurse. I’ve experienced a variety emotions over my years of nursing. I have never regretted being a nurse, until that night. I was at a low. My heart and my spirit had been broken. I was mentally exhausted to the point to where I did not want to return to work. I actually cried, not because I hurt for a patient, but because for the first time, I hated what I was doing. Even now thinking about those emotions and that night, I feel the sting of tears in my eyes.
I had to put myself in check. I do not hate my job. I love my job. This is my passion. It’s what gives me satisfaction in life. Knowing that I help other people brings me great joy in life. I LOVE caring for other people. I LOVE doing for others what they cant do for themselves. “There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors of perception.” I made myself look at that. What are the things that are known. We know that the world is in a spot that it’s never been in before. We know that there are people who are going to need extra care. We know that there are people who will hurt, people who will die, and families who will suffer that loss. I know that I am needed. What we dont know is how long this will all last. Between that.. is how we look at it. My perception was skewed based on the situation I was looking at it from.
I am not better, I am not ok, but I do not hate my job today. I hate the situation that this world is in and I feel helpless to change it. I feel discouraged that sometimes no matter how much you give, it’s not going to be enough. Tonight I will return to work, put on a mask that I will wear for 9 hours and do what I do best.. I will help others, because its what I do. I will do it because I have chosen the perspective that I will look at the world in. I choose to look, not at how big this problem is, but at how one individual might make a difference to one person.
Over hill, over dale,
Thorough bush, thorough brier,
Over park, over pale,
Thorough flood, thorough fire!
I do wander everywhere,
Swifter than the moon’s sphere;
And I serve the Fairy Queen,
To dew her orbs upon the green;
The cowslips tall her pensioners be;
In their gold coats spots you see;
Those be rubies, fairy favours;
In those freckles live their savours;
I must go seek some dewdrops here,
And hang a pearl in every cowslip’s ear.
Comes complete with Mushrooms, purple bell flowers and yellow flowers. Can be found in world at the HARAJUKU EVENT 20 may -> 09 june Here
In the silence of her mind.. emotions rage. Happiness, love, passion, fear, all part of who she is, rage like a storm constantly changing. Do you see her? Do you see that her happiness is her own making?.. Because life has given her many reasons not to be happy.. but she realizes that life has given her so many more reason to be happy. Do you see that she loves with fierce passion, because she appreciates what each person in her life brings to the table? Do you see that often her insecurities are really the manifestations of her fear that she may lose the things she values? Do you see that she is not strong, but weak and unable to control the mess she calls herself. Do you see that she has her own walls built, and while she works to break through yours, hers remain steadfast. Do you really see her?
Top and Shorts by .::Debut::. HP Crop Sweater and Mia Shorts. Both can be found in world here.
We are all painters
Holding a color palette
Conceiving a painting
It’s how we mix the colors
Depending on our imagination
Whether we paint happiness
Or scenes of saddened gray
Situations yield the paintings
Sometimes splashing all colors
Or else black colors gloom
Universe has mostly dark energy
Yet, we have found our colors
To paint our abode, we inhabit
No matter, colors of joy and sorrow
We celebrate all colors
We are all painters, wielding the brush
To create new colors of hope
Melody Gown By .::Debut::.
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Or on the here on the MP
Let’s Make SL Great Again!
Hi there. I am Abigail Lemongrass. I come to you on a platform for making Second Life great again. My main goal in Second Life is to insure that fun times are had and everyone stays safe.
Who is Abigail though? Well she is a friend to many. Someone you can count on to meet your expectations.
Keeping you and your loved ones safe is just part of what she does. This punk should’ve exercised his right to remain silent.
She is an role model to our youth. “You must extend your legs when you twerk”
She supports local business. “One of these.. and these.. oh.. and a couple of these.. This should get me through the weekend”
She is always wiling to help those in need. “Did you get the shot?”
She pledges to protect and serve ” Hurry up so we can get a donut while they are hot”
Abigail is a fun loving free spirit that will always be here for you in your times of need. She cant really make Second Life any better for you. She cant lower the cost of a premium membership. She cant get a free mesh head or a free mesh body. Voting for Abigail will not make your life any better. Heck.. who are we kidding.. there isnt even an election.. I just wanted to take some pictures and show off a cool car that I’m blogging for. You wanna make Second Life great again? Have fun! Explore! Meet new people, Be friendly.. but above all.. do no harm!
X’s and O’s from across the grid
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I got the chance to attend a music festival this weekend. Here The music was great and the atomosphere was super friendly.
I was unsure exactly who put this festival on or if it was something that was a regular weekly type event. I set out on a quest to find out (Not really. I really just asked a friend who told me what they knew) I spoke with a real peach named Dizzy. Here is what she had to say.
“What we call Friendship Valley is the little town we built here in Cleora region, parts of Ribeata region and in Torva, Parva and Miata regions along Route 1 here. We also have other ‘hub’ locations like Friendship Bay where we hang out. Hedonism Club isn’t a place but a social club that puts on the festivals (and other events) but some of our places like the valley and bay and such are more or less permanent :)”
So she kindly passed along to me some links which I will share here.
As most of my friends know .. the scene is everything.. and this place did not come up wanting. I loved the effort put into ensuring the perfection of the smallest details.
The lineup was planned..
The stage was set..
The food.. was perfection..
All the chicks were out to see the events.
And after all was said and done?.. Couldn’t make it home? That’s ok.. they had accommodations for sleeping as well!
Over all it was a weekend worth remembering!!
Extra shameless Pictures of myself.. well because thats how I roll…
X’s and O’s from accross the grid!
Oh it’s that time fo the week again! Time to shop! What better way to do it than to go in style! So I jumped into my new car by [amc] and headed out.
Along the way I passed through this pleasant little town called Mother Roads. The police here must’ve known I was in a hurry to get about my shopping. They were most helpful with this personal escort through the town. They did follow me for a while which I thought was over kill. Oh and the hellicopter was a bit much but very friendly none the less.
Something.. who knows what.. went a little crazy with my car. I got the strangest look from the tow truck guy when I asked him if maybe the car was out of blinker fluid.
The nice man did hook my car up and take it to the nearest gas station for me. I had to call home for help.. and of course he was no help at all because I still dont understand what checking the oil has to do with Fifty Linden Friday. I guess that I will settle for TP’ing around and of course the MP.. I did set out with the best of intentiosn today! Happy Shopping everyone!
Included in package – Car Rezzer, Gas pump Rezzer, Route 66 sign and of course the car.
Special thanks to my friend Trish who always opens her sim up to those in need of place to take a snazzy picture and to Mother Roads, who always provides such a beautiful backdrop!
I am a nurse in RL. The picture’s I’ve seen others do depicting our worlds current situation always touch my heart so I decided to do one of my own.
You may not know this but nurses have given their all long before this world crisis started. Most of us love our jobs and do the job because we have a passion for helping and loving others. It’s what makes our job “doable” for us.
On an average day I will get attacked both verbally and physically. I may laugh with someone who has forgotten their own name and I may shed a tear for a family member who is left watching as their loved one slips into a person they do not recognize. I’ve held many hands as they took their last breath in this world. It really never gets any easier to watch a family lose someone they love. As nurses we give everything we are to our jobs. We take it personal when our patients aren’t doing well. Believe me when I tell you that each person who passes on our shift.. is mourned.
To say this job is hard is a harsh understatement. The current situation has only made it more difficult. Thank you to all my fellow nurses who serve so willingly. Thank you for doing a job that is often thankless. Thank you for “playing cards” Thank you for wearing your “Dr’s. Stethoscope” . Nurse to nurse… I see you.. and I thank you..